Fragile bones protruding on marble white flesh.
A neck of milk, a lovely lace of hollow clavicles
Adorning the smooth of her shoulders.
Cold fingertips graze her tender arms
Down to her elbows,
Down to her slender wrists.
It was a touch devoid of meaning
'Cause I touch her just to feel
Bones frigid yet brittle
Hiding beneath muscles and purple veins --
A labyrinth under a blanket of translucent skin.
She lay oblique on a garden of sheets
She lay still with a lifeless face
Slowly I trace her jawline and its shadows
Trace the sternum down
To a ruffle of ribs delicate as talc
I trace every bone, her every knuckle
Her pelvis and knees, her ankles and toes
Slowly I delve 
Into the delicate outline of her being...
Slowly I stare
And watch this damned woman
Staring back and reaching for her own hand
Poking the opaque glass
Hoping like a fool that it's a portal to Eden.

Even this "vanishing cream" isn't what I need. It's just going to make you invisible, but you're still there. You still know where you are and where your body parts are, it's just that no one can see. How do you get lost? How would you die without any trace... without a corpse?

Isang araw, sumakay ako ng bus. Umupo. Maya-maya ay nilapitan na ako ng konduktor. Inabot ko ang buo kong pera na 500 pesos. 

Lift my veil
And touch my thick fake lashes
As I throw my glass heels to the lake.

In the sunkissed grass, we sit and roll.
Let me wallow
in these endless ripples of white fabric.

Come with me
In this vast ocean of satin
and petticoat.

Let's swim and drown
In this big white cloth.

Flying ashes.
Dust in your eyes.
Dried leaves swirling with the wind.
Old jeepneys farting thick black smoke.

Everything kills.
Sometimes everything wears you out.
You just walk.
And you don't feel your feet anymore.

gonna put a chainsaw
between your legs
and let it do the work
all the way up to your zenith
until you fall apart
into two pieces
of symmetrical figures.

you're gonna scream:
"OMG, OMG, Oh-Em-Gee!!!"
but nobody's gonna help you
'cause darling, they're all scared of me.

i lay in bed
all day
without bath
without food and drink
and i leave the doors open
to invite the criminal mind
to come inside
and find a lone prey
spreadeagle
on the crumpled sheets
amongst the dog shit
and puddles of dog piss.

he will come in
black clad
his knife will gleam in the dark.

spreadeagle
i will listen to his footsteps
anticipate
for the creak of my door.

at the sight of his tall shadow
i will close my eyes
and the skin of my back
shall earnestly wait
for the kiss
of a metal blade.